Neither of these are exactly what I was looking for.

As it turns out, what I was looking for doesn’t exist.

I’ll have to write it.

I wanted to take some time in these before posting about them. I needed to get a good feel.

I have never been a confident person, and if I ever have come across as such, it was forced and false, ultimately ending in humiliation.

The type of confidence I desire is quiet and subtle. Maybe one that no one even knows about. Not even in my opinions or beliefs, but in my standing as a human being.

I have always felt less than. My kind of niche is not easy to come by, and setting standards for myself early on became fodder for ridicule and criticism from the world around me.

These things are what I want to overcome. These daily readers I hope can help me do so.

I’m tired of “too little.” I’m swinging for the fences.

All or nothing.